this happened around 6.15pm... Had an argument with father.. And i finally took the courage to say out things which i think is not right. And i have been tolerating this for a long time.. Finally can let it out ler.. I just dun understand why must u force me to go. I go there i feel so uneasy. Go there eat awhile then go liao u also happy.. U say like that then will not be pai sei.. But is face more important than your daughter happiness. Your already found your happiness. But by asking me to go to the place which i dun like, u are building your happiness on my sorrow. Why can't u just go there and be happy and i stay here. Like that both sides will be happy. Why need use force one? Not only i'm not happy about going there. All of us dun feel like going there. But they dun dare to say out. But i can't tolerate anymore. I just dun feel like going. I HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT. You and she and her family are in a world of yours. Dun pull me in. I'm very happy at the place where i'm in right now. I just want to stay like that and not get involved with her or her family. You might think that i'm not a good daughter. But i just want to be happy. I dun wan to do things which i dun like. Your promised that our life will not be interrupted or changed. But by forcing me to go means interrupting my life... I feel that i did not do wrong this time and i will definitely not go and i will definitely not cry. U might not love me as much or talk to me anymore but its ok. I just want to be happy and do the things i like. Not going there doesn't mean i dun side with u. I just dun like strangers. If u want me to go i rather kill myself. I really felt angry when u said i side with mother just by going to celebrate her birthday at ah yi house. This is not the same thing and how can u compared it together. I din really mention the reason we go ah yi house eat caused i dun wan u to think of the past and think that i'm not siding with u. And i just want to have a nice dinner with mum and ah yi they all.. One year only see once and sometimes one year also never see each other.. I really miss them. Even wai gong, wai po and ah yi they all miss us. Isn't it sad. One year mum and daughter hardly see each other. why can't me the innocent kid enjoy my time with my mother and father. I know we can't return to the past but i hope to be still able to see both of u enjoying your life and able to see you all from time to time. I really hope dad can understand how i feel and dun force me to go there anymore. If this will lead to a cold war between me and u, i also had no choice. I din mean to argue with u, i just want to voice out my point and hope u understand. Brother and lao gong are on my side and this boost up my confidence. I'M NOT WRONG!!!! I love both of you and i not going to be bias to which side.

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